Zoom Zoom Zoom!

I finally got my new car!
He's beautiful in every shape and form.

I'll miss my old '91 Dodge Shadow for the road trips I did from Windsor to home and vice-versa. After years of driving that car, it made me appreciate how lucky I was to have a running car. But HELLOOOO Mazda 3!!! :D

Random Message

I got a message from the ex saying:

Mac: "you suck"
Mac: "Whoops, wrong person."

What the hell was that?!?
No apologies?!
And I wasn't even online!

I showed that message to my mom because I trust her. She got more worried than I anticipated which rubbed off on me now.

Then I saw his picture on a facebook friend's page and it just made my heart drop for some reason. This time it's a different type of feeling. Before, I was elated to see his face but after that random message, fear is attached now.

I know it's nothing to worry about, but you never know. I know his family's history and it scares me if it has passed on to him as well...

Are You Enjoying Your 20s?

I have discussed this with a few good friends, and it seems to be a consensus to it: being in your 20s is more awkward than your teen years. It is true because this is a stage where you're starting your career, searching for your soul mate and also in the process of finding your own true self. And to top that off, you're broke! We all go to parties and pretend we're having the best time but really, our 20s kind of suck. I don't want to say I want my 20s to be over, because I promised myself I would enjoy it while I'm still in it. I am only hopeful that physics doesn't toy with me and only bring me up from this roller coaster decade. No more downward spiralling please!

What's The Solution? Puppies!

I don't know about you, but I definitely see this as a great solution to our economic crisis. ^__^

See more Natalie Portman videos at Funny or Die

"Yea you, you got that something...I think you'll understand."

I saw your msn tag line and it made me wonder...
Have you gotten over me so quickly?

I thought I have of you, but something struck me when I saw that line.

Or was that just for me like you used to do?

15 Years!!!

I forgot to mention yesterday that it was 15 years ago that my family arrived to Canada. Wow...time does fly by.

It has been great living here in Canada, minus the cold and harsh winter weather. My awkward years were developed in this country. I sometimes wonder how my life and my family's life would have been different if we did stay back in the Philippines.

I know one thing's for sure, my weight would have been less heavy. Haha...

Are Guys Just As Vain As Girls?

I should really be sleeping right now, but I want to write this thought down before I forget.

I was at a bar with some friends to celebrate D's new job position.
I headed my way to the bathroom to fix myself up and as I was applying my hot pink lip gloss on, this girl turns to me and says "It's funny how women can fix themselves up in the bathroom and not be phased by it because all of us do it. We women have this understanding. If guys did the same thing, they would get weird looks from each other." And all I could say was "Yeah, I guess guys are more straight-forward." I really didn't know where I was going with that comment, but I was just caught off guard with the girl's comment.

I should have asked my guys about this though:
Are guys comfortable fixing themselves in public bathrooms? Or is that just done privately?

Double Dose of Dereon

This one is my workout song...



"If you like it then you should put a ring on it." Haha...

Then a break-up song...



I'm liking the black-and-white theme Beyonce had going in her two videos.

UPDATE!
Apparently the song "If I Were A Boy" was ripped off from this other female artist named BC Jean. I actually like her version of the song much better than Knowles'.

Deal-Breakers?

When meeting new people, we're all scanning for qualities that will spark our interest to become more interested in that person. I have some qualities that I always look for in a guy (whenever I actually meet them).

Here are a few non-deal-breakers of mine:

• Good fashion sense - Seeing a guy in a well thought out outfit, even if it looks effortless is a turn-on. Besides, he would be a good person to ask for some fashion advice, without making him feel gay-ish. Haha...

• A great laugh - Oddly enough, there's something sexy about a genuine or even a silly (but not weird) laugh. If you laugh at my bad jokes then maybe there's hope for that guy and I. Heh.

• Enjoys dancing - I like to dance so he needs to dance with me. I like to watch guys letting their confidence just ooze out on the dance floor. I find that sexy and entertaining.

I can also add the superficial things like nice eyes, knee-weakening smile and the almost buzzed-cut hair. There's nothing sexier than a clean-shaven man. Mmm-mmm... But of course, I like 'em scruffy on occasions as well. ;)

What are some of your deal-breakers?

Canadian Elections 2008

I personally find the Canadian politics not as exciting as the American version, but I am practicing my right to vote for a political party. This is my second time voting as well.

Who are you voting for?

Love Lockdown Video

Kanye West - Love Lockdown

I'm hypnotized with the drum beats and lyrics.

Inspirational Quote of the Day

“See every difficulty as a challenge, a stepping stone, and never be defeated by anything or anyone.”

~ Eileen Caddy (from ‘The Dawn of Change’)

A Moment Of Weirdness

I am turning 25 in a few months and it feels like I am dealing with a quarter-century-crisis!
Can you imagine when I turn 30? 40?! 50?!?
How did I let this get out of hand?!

As I was packing today to head back home from London, Ontario, I noticed something really disturbing with my wardrobe collection. My clothes consisted mostly of the colour black. In a way, as I have said in the previous post, I am stuck in a rut and it is clearly showing with my wardrobe. This is really worrying me because I feel like I am not myself anymore and it is showing with the way I am dressing as well. I thoroughly enjoy watching any type of makeover shows, such as TLC's What Not To Wear. Before the big reveal of change, the people that get their makeovers done talk about or will be revealed in some form of how they got to where they are at. And some of them, you can clearly see along the way that they had lost their sense of self. Their confidence had faded and so they stopped caring of how they looked. I don't want that to happen to me...but it seems to be creeping up behind me.

I have lost passion for the things I used to obsess over.

Even my behaviour has been very disappointing lately, especially last night. This is not how I want to handle with whatever I am dealing with. I need to create a healthier outlet than what I have been doing lately.

HOWEVER...

I do think this is a great opportunity for me to start fresh and find myself once again. This could also help me refresh my love and passion for art. Which means, visiting galleries (I have a couple in mind already), reading and creating something artistic again instead of being glued to the computer all day. I should also read more books like I used to! I should spend time with old friends that I have not seen in a while. Lastly, become more physically active like I used to. There are so much things out there, and it felt like I have shut the door from everything that was familiar to me.

I know I will be fine and it's just a detour from what I have had planned. I always bounce back from any problems and learn from it. I will be shiny and sparkly once again. You just wait! Haha...

Hello Change!

I hate to say it but whenever I try to lose weight, I use a person(s) to inspire me to attain that weight loss goal. The only time it worked was back in high school, where I was head over heels for a teacher and this guy who's a friend of a friend. It felt good when I lost that weight, but my main problem was keeping it off. But I guess it's just the matter of creating a stronger will-power. I have NONE whatsoever when it comes to food. As I always say, "food always wins." But I really should not allow that to happen. I am what I eat and it doesn't really look good right now. Haha!

I will still use a certain person(s) to inspire my weight loss, but mainly it should be about what I need to do for myself - health wise that is. I have been in a rut within the last year or so and my goal is to get out of it.

Here's to healthy living!

P.S. I guess I should start looking at vegetables in that sense. Mmmm...veggies. Rawr! Haha...