A Moment Of Weirdness

I am turning 25 in a few months and it feels like I am dealing with a quarter-century-crisis!
Can you imagine when I turn 30? 40?! 50?!?
How did I let this get out of hand?!

As I was packing today to head back home from London, Ontario, I noticed something really disturbing with my wardrobe collection. My clothes consisted mostly of the colour black. In a way, as I have said in the previous post, I am stuck in a rut and it is clearly showing with my wardrobe. This is really worrying me because I feel like I am not myself anymore and it is showing with the way I am dressing as well. I thoroughly enjoy watching any type of makeover shows, such as TLC's What Not To Wear. Before the big reveal of change, the people that get their makeovers done talk about or will be revealed in some form of how they got to where they are at. And some of them, you can clearly see along the way that they had lost their sense of self. Their confidence had faded and so they stopped caring of how they looked. I don't want that to happen to me...but it seems to be creeping up behind me.

I have lost passion for the things I used to obsess over.

Even my behaviour has been very disappointing lately, especially last night. This is not how I want to handle with whatever I am dealing with. I need to create a healthier outlet than what I have been doing lately.

HOWEVER...

I do think this is a great opportunity for me to start fresh and find myself once again. This could also help me refresh my love and passion for art. Which means, visiting galleries (I have a couple in mind already), reading and creating something artistic again instead of being glued to the computer all day. I should also read more books like I used to! I should spend time with old friends that I have not seen in a while. Lastly, become more physically active like I used to. There are so much things out there, and it felt like I have shut the door from everything that was familiar to me.

I know I will be fine and it's just a detour from what I have had planned. I always bounce back from any problems and learn from it. I will be shiny and sparkly once again. You just wait! Haha...

Antivirus XP 2008

So the remainder of my Sunday night consisted of me doing some lesson planning for my tutoring job and downloading tunes. Long and behold after stacking up on some Taylor Swift (which has grown on me thanks to some gushing from the D) and Marie Digby songs, a random message pops up on my screen indicating to me that my "computer is at risk". I have to be honest, I am not the most computer savvy and careful user as well. I download anything and everything that I think is interesting. So for a little while I thought Windows is just asking me to update my antivirus-thingamajig-program because my version is old or a 'phony'. But NOOoooooo...this stupid pop-up message just kept showing up telling me that 3080-ish files are infected and I must use the Antivirus XP 2008 program to remove these infected files. I didn't know what to do and was getting nervous/frustrated because I really didn't want to lose my files for the second time (my computer crashed just last summer). That was devastating because I lost so many picture files thanks to my carelessness.

So as any clueless user would do, I researched on how to remove this Antivirus XP 2008. I learned that it is a Trojan Virus that creeps up into your computer by attaching itself through other files such e-mail attachments, peer-to-peer, and other file sharing methods. There were numerous methods of removing the virus by either doing it manually (only do this if you know your computer inside and out) or using some spyware program that's for free. I used a program called Malawarebytes (free download at http://www.download.com/) and this will save your computer. I just did it a few minutes ago and my computer is back to normal (I hope).

I can't say stop downloading files from websites or opening e-mail attachments because sometimes you may think it is safe, but really it's not. So the lesson for today is: protect, do your research AND always back-up your computer. Take care of your computers!
(Why did that sound like a paid advertisement? lol)

It's late and I just wanted to sleep...so I will now. G'night!