Can I Trust My Dreams?

So last night I had a dream that I fell in love with this professor whom I met at a friend's house. It didn't feel realistic (like some of my other dreams have been lately) but it felt like this was a precursor to my real life.

Sometimes my dreams are just plain outrageous. I had a few that were just ridiculous but enough to get me all curious if it were to happen. Such as, making out with a friend and making out with my ex-boyfriend. This took place in two to three separate dreams.

I'm intrigued...

What are my dreams telling me? Or is this just a figment of my imagination? Probably.

Goodbye September and hello October...

Change of Air

So Fall is here, and you can definitely feel the change of season.
I feel like there will be changes to come for me but I don't know how much will happen, but that's enough to move on.

My weekend consisted of:

Friday: went to Jack's Backyard with two of my close guy friends

Saturday: Celine Dion concert with mom and saw one local celebrity (pictures to come soon)

Sunday: church and becoming a mall rat with D

New Voice

I really need to set a better tone to my blog.
No more whining, no more moping and no more wondering "what ifs".

I will attempt to change my attitude, and become the confident woman I should be!

I'll grab life by its balls. Hahaha...

Betty

It's gross and sad when my baggy clothes are tighter on me now.

I'm going to the gym tonight.

On another note, I am looking forward to the season premier of Ugly Betty tonight! :D

Who needs to be a stick when you can be curvy, cute and quirky like Betty, right?

She's going to be my Halloween costume again.

More Pondering When I Am Alone

On the way back home from my tutoring session, I realized something important with my mini dilemma. Would this guy even like me back? Would it or have crossed his mind that I am interested in him? I hate this stupid push and pull game I do to myself.

Has it even crossed his mind I can be more than just a friend?

Heh.

Again, I spend too much time and energy on "love" and not on what's really needed to be worked on.

Busy Bee!

I can see why I always try to be busy. When I think too much about things I get too worked up and all these crazy thoughts just come to place. And this doesn't help with my confusion about someone. I think about the timing of breaking off a long-term relationship, healing (I don't even know if I am?), and of course enjoying the single life again. I know I shouldn't rush things either. But what if I lose that chance? Would I regret it or would time come into play?


It's all up to God, I guess. I always leave it up to Him.


I'll just enjoy life as it is right now and see where it goes.


Man, I need a steady job before I explode!

Should Have Considered Teaching Night School

I need to get used to waking up earlier than I usually do. I got my second call today around 6:20 a.m. and was able to punch in my pin number and whatnots to hear the assignment. However, there was an error when I accepted the job. I was a little disappointed but relieved at the same time. To my disappointment, I went back to sleep and woke up a couple of hours later.

It feels good to be finally getting the calls for supply teaching. But I chose the wrong profession to wake up so early and be expected to entertain adolescents who half-care of what they are doing in school. I guess that's why we get paid so much to do such a challenging job. Oh boy!

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy teaching and being in school. Haha...my inner nerd is finally being used to its full potential.

I think today, I'm going for a haircut. I have some ideas, but nothing of a major change but enough to feel good with the cut. We shall see!...

Morning Rush!

I finally got a call from the board! First day of supply teaching and I arrive late. Good way to start the school year! Haha...

It wasn't my fault though. The board called 15 mins. before the school started, so I had to scramble and find the school's number to notify them that I am on my way but will be a little late. They were understanding and all went well. The day consisted of me babysitting students from Gr. 9s to 12. I instructed them of what their teacher listed in their lesson plan and I just regurgitate that. Some attitudes were exchanged from students, but of course the job comes with the territory. There were good students as well. But overall, it was a good learning experience. I am looking forward to seeing more different classes and schools. And I need to develop a thicker skin dealing with these kids. Tsk tsk...

On another note, I got a letter from 'Mac' (we'll call him that from now on which I must remember to alter his name in another post). *Note to self edit previous post* I was surprised that he would write to me considering of how our last conversation was. He was very angry and negative. But as a good friend and ex-girlfriend, I tried to be understanding. I think he just needs to be with people to distract him from his problems. So that means I will have to take him out with my friends. I'm not doing him a favour, more like I'd like to show him that I am still there for him not as his girlfriend, but as a friend.